I’m going to vent here because I’m pretty sure no one’s gonna notice. ok? cool.
I’m sick and tired of getting emotionally attached to every damn thing. My job, my school work, and worst of all, people. I’m pretty sure that I hardly cross the minds of those I spend hours a day thinking of. One person in particular… always waiting for a text, always anticipating seeing them again, hoping that they ever think of me. Or even have an opinion of me for that matter. Why am I such a fucking pussy about it though? Am I really that afraid of getting shot down that badly? Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t spend so much time alone, but I really have no idea how to handle all these feelings. Earlier today I almost broke down at school because I cut 2 little pieces of hair a 1/4 inch too short…. not even noticeable. I had my instructor standing there going, “it’s ok! you’re doing well. everything is good. I would tell you if you were doing anything wrong. You’re doing really well.” over and over and I was still on the verge of a panic attack. I can’t help but wonder if all of my pent up frustration involving this one person is causing me to be a fucking psycho, or if I’m just a fucking psycho with pent up frustration for someone. Or maybe it’s all normal and I just have no idea how to handle it because I’ve been trying so hard to not have feelings about things lately. I’m scared to have feelings. I’m scared of being hurt. I’m scared to accept anything as truth because of the times that my perception of what WAS truth was shattered. I’m SO sick and tired of this. I wish I could ACTUALLY not give a fuck about anything instead of just trying to keep things hidden from myself. And what if I tell this person about all these feelings that I have and they are caught off guard. What if the possibility of there being feelings between us has never even crossed their mind. What if the person who constantly invades my thoughts has never thought of me as more than a friend. Or. Even a friend at all.
sincerely, confused af.
It’s not your body anymore, when there is a baby present. Carry that child to term responsibly, or you’re a murderer.
No, I’m sorry, but that’s idiotic. It’s my body no matter what. If I wanted to get an abortion i’d get a fucking abortion regardless if that made me a murderer in someone who doesn’t have to actually carry a baby’s eyes. Birth control being more widely available is a serious issue. You’re stupid if you think every situation that leads to abortion makes someone a murderer. 11 year old gets raped by her cousin “No girl, you carry that child, you squeeze that out of your currently underdeveloped vagina. It’s the right thing to do. You’re a murderer if you don’t. Who cares that it’ll emotionally scar you for life and you’ll forever be reminded of it every time you look at your child or cousin. It’s the humane thing to do. If you were older you’d understand.” Shit, the same thing happened to a nine year old “Who the fuck cares if you’re only a baby yourself, you’re totally going to go through with this, I don’t care if it’ll nearly kill you or damage your insides. Raise that baby like a good non-murderer.”
Then we go overseas where it’s all “You’re pregnant out of wedlock, let’s stone you to death instead of giving you and others like you birth control or the option to abort. I’m sorry that we live in such a fucked up society that if I force myself on you and get pregnant you’re still the one who is shamed. Wait no I’m not, suck it up and deal with it”, “You’ve been told your baby is dying in the womb, no abortion for you girl, you have to keep it and die of blood poisoning. Too bad we could have avoided it if we were more understanding of a woman and her body”.
Open your eyes for God’s sake. You can’t even get pregnant, you’re a man and I get that you have a right to your unborn child and the potential for mental trauma. But you personally are not at risk of dying from pregnancy complications. You personally are not at risk of being shunned by your community and killed for carrying someone elses child. You personally are not having to carry the mental and physical scars of going through an unwanted pregnancy with your potential rapists child. You personally are not at risk of being considered used, dirty and unwanted because of something you could have avoided if proper health care was available to you. You aren’t personally responsible for raising a child (or person with mental capacity of a child) who also has a child because “Abortion is murder in all circumstances”.
It’s not your body either, and until you have to deal with everything above then you cannot tell a woman what she can and cannot do with her body.
My roommate, laying it the fuck down.
Reblogging again because I really needed that ignorance to be addressed, and it was, and I needed that.
Fuck yes yes yes!
I’m crying this is so perfect
Its back on my dash again
Am I the only mom that is pro choice??
Thank motherfucking god
Dabs and twax doobies